She is used to being called for tests at any time of day,
sometimes in the middle of the night. She has become so accustomed to the same
path from the library or the study to the arena that she could –and she has
before- find it with her eyes closed. Tonight, though, she is led down a series
of unfamiliar passages, thin dark twists in which the walls, which she feels by
reaching out a tentative hand, are ice cold. She narrows her eyes in the
darkness but her father walks behind her, giving directions when they reach a
door or a fork in the passage.
Her father pushes her toward the arena, but she stops barely
inside the room she has become so familiar with. It is not so familiar now.
In the arena, stretching across the floor is a huge raised
platform, its supports hidden in the shadow cast beneath it. The platform is
smooth and covered with calf-high wooden pegs, sanded to the smoothness of
beach glass.
There are no lanterns above to illuminate the platform, no
candelabras or flames flickering in sconces. The ceiling and walls are inky
black. There is nothing to light up the space, yet it is lit, from some spot
she cannot pinpoint.
Her father shoves her toward the platform when a low narrow
staircase brings to the pegged surface. When she glances back, her father has
dissolved into the shadows.
She tries to brighten the space around herself, expand the
circle of light or bring unseen candles to life, and is surprised when she
cannot. She is equally surprised when another figure steps onto the opposite end
of the platform. It is a girl, in an apprentice’s pale blue uniform, with
remarkably bright red hair.
She recognizes the red haired girl; they are no more than
acquaintances but they have often studied in the gardens together, or when the
gardens are filled with snow, in adjoining rooms of the library, though they
study vastly different subjects. She recalls sitting next to the girl in an
alcove as they both avoided their teaches, she was found quickly, she can never
elude her father for more than a few hours, but the red haired girl did not
emerge until the sun has melted into the sky and early stars were twinkling.
The red haired girl looks at her for an indication of what
to expect. She is as puzzled as her opponent, her red brow wrinkles in confusion.
Two scholars emerge from the lightlessness, ascending the
steps and wordlessly stopping before both girls.
She is handed two identical daggers, twins in gold and
steel, much to her surprise. A long pointed one with a simple silver hilt, a
gold dragon winding around the pommel and guard, where his coils are separated
she slips her fingers into the grooves and grasps it tightly, the ore too soft,
she would have thought, for a weapon intended for use beyond ornament. It is
long and pointed, double edged, made for stabbing and slicing.
Her opponent, when she steps into the arena, also has two
daggers, but hers are gold and black with a single ruby eye in the pommel.
She and her opponent lock eyes and they are equally confused
by their battlefield.
In the ghostly light, the blade glints like the eyes of a
needle.
“Fight,” says a voice, an amplified contortion of her
father’s command, and she understands. It is a physical test.
It is not the tests she has taken before, not the challenges
she has performed in what she has called, up to now, the Exhibition Hall. It is
not the sequestered lessons in her father’s study, or the intimate affairs in
which she presents her skills to her father’s company. The test has an entirely
new meaning, and a much greater magnitude.
It is the first challenge in which she has faced an opponent
and she thinks it may be her last. She knows this girl, not by name, but
occupation. The red-haired girl has been apprentice to fencers and swordsman
and is old friends with many exotic arms. She moves with the grace and speed of
a jungle cat.
She knows she has no chance of defeating the red haired
girl.
Uncertainly she raises her blade, the red haired girl mimics
her. They take their time drawing toward one another, reluctant to confront one
another with alien weapons, on such unsettling terms. They wind around the pegs,
taking care not to bump their shins, until only a few pegs separate them.
She does not make the first attack. The red haired girl
lunges forward, jabbing with the tip of her dagger. She catches it with the
flat side of her blade, near her clavicle. She pushes the dagger away and
sweeps to the side, bringing her other dagger in an arc to her left, aimed for
the red haired girl’s side. The red haired girl dodges easily, spinning around
her. As the seconds stretch out she hears them like the ticking of a clock.
They cease when her opponent drapes a hand over her shoulder, reaching around
her neck with her jet and gold knife.
She wraps her fingers around the slim wrist and pulls,
launching opponent over her shoulder. The red haired girl lands lightly and
spins to face her. The air is alive, crisp and cool and writhing with fury and
her own fear. She is shaking with the effort of not snapping any of the pegs on
the platform.
They continue to circle, lunging and parrying, moving like
charmed snakes, bound to each other by fear. She keeps her eyes on the girl. For
the red haired girl it is a test of swordsmanship, for herself, a test of her
manipulation of speed and strength.
Suddenly, the ground tilts downward under her feet and she
falls forward, reaching for the pegs to stop herself. Her opponent slides
backward and drops on her knees to wind her elbows around two pegs, waiting for
it to stop. It doesn’t stop. The arena is moving and the players must adapt.
They fall down together, she is thrown backward, landing
awkwardly in the space between pegs and striking her knee on a peg while her
opponent lurches forward. She feels as though she is in a dream.
They sway on the moving platform, bending and staying low to
avoid falling, though sometimes the ground shifts so suddenly they must clutch
the pegs so as not to slide off.
She wonders if she could still the ground, if it is a
contraption built by the scholars, she is sure she could. She concentrates on
the ground; feeling the depth of the wood and the hollowness beyond it, empty
of clockwork or any sort or mechanisms. She loses sight of the red haired girl.
It is a mistake. The red haired girl, fueled by desperation
and terror so acute it is almost palpable, and also by instinct, brings her
dagger forward, slicing through the soft flesh of her shoulder. Time is
suspended for a moment, the image frozen of blood blossoming on her white skin
like paint on a flower.
The pain in her shoulder burns, she feels as though her arm
has been torn apart. She tries to find the edges, to pull them back together.
It is the balance, between focusing on the weapon before her, and bringing
together the ragged fringes of her skin, it is more a thousand times more
painful than the cuts she has practiced with before.
Her panic tastes coppery.
She concentrates, retreating a few steps out of reach to do
so, following the threads of her broken skin with her mind. Slowly they weave
together, her blood running back up her arm and into the cut, her skin pulls
together and the cut fades to a red line, then to nothing.
It is the concentration she has worked so hard to build in
her father’s study increased a thousandfold.
The pain dissipates, like ink in water, and her newly healed
skin makes her feel strong. She feels like steel, energy breaking in her veins
like white waves. The red haired girl’s face is white, her hands shaky, as she
returns the strike.
The tempo of the fight increases. They dance across the
platform, as hurricane of flashing silver and gold.
Smooth and graceful as snakes.
She moves lithely and fluid as water, stepping around the
other girl, feeling powerful and fearful.
Her strikes to her opponent make her feel animal, carnal,
vicious. When she stands the red haired girl flinches.
It is the most potent energy she has ever felt, born not
from focus and concentration, but from fury and danger.
She is bright as sparks, cool as ice. Danger flares in her
like fire. The air around her crackles with energy, she feels threads of wind
twist around her and pulls them in front of her like a shield.
Her opponent’s blade ricochets off the air around her, like
an invisible wall.
The air is charged with something hot and bright, like
invisible flames subdued to barely burning, she expects sparks to crackle when
they move.
The dagger splinters.
Long, jagged shards of steel spin across the arena, like
arabesques of silver fire.
The arena halts mid-tilt. The red haired girl staggers back,
clutching the hilt of her broken dagger, looking unbelievingly between the few
strips of the shoulder still protruding from the guard and the pieces that lay
around them like a starburst. The moment stretches on, until she looks up at
her opponent. The red haired girl recoils.
She is still staring when her father grasps her tunic and
throws her off the platform.
This time her father does not murmur directions at every
threshold and crossroad, instead she feels propelled forward, jerked by
invisible strings and aimed this way and that, careening down the passages with
violent force.
The door to his study is almost flung off its hinges as it
opens. He releases her. She caught herself with her hands as her knees came
down on the marble with a sickening crack.
She begins to turn and stand but catching sight of herself
in the mirror.
Her eyes are black. Black that spreads like a pool of ink
from the pupil to the corners of her eyes, shrouding the whites and her irises.
“Your temper got the best of you. You failed your test.”
The papers on his desk begin to rise, the birdcages shake
and doves coo in nervousness. The ink in its holder and the wine in its bottle
begin to ripple. He narrows his eyes.
“I overestimated your abilities in a real challenge. You are
a disappointment, strength and speed mean nothing if you do not have the energy
to control them.”
He brings the bottle down on her wrist; her bones shatter
inside her skin.
The papers settle, the birdcages come to a halt, but the
inkwell shatters, spraying black across the papers on the desk, her father’s
white shirt and her pale face and arms.
“Fix it,” he demands, setting the bottle down on his desk.
She stares at her wrist, feeling inside for the cracks in
her bone. Pain lances up her arm and she releases it with a gasp.
“Concentrate.”
She tries again, biting back tears and bringing to mind the
control with which she had healed her broken skin during her test. Her focus
wavers and the candles in the room flicker. A sudden iciness builds in the air
and the prickling on her skin pulls her away from the jagged edges of bone
twisted around her veins.
“Your lack of control will cost you. When you can restrain
yourself, your lessons will resume.”
He strides from the room, the door swinging closed of its
own accord, the hinges returning to near-perfect condition.
Art by Cirque du Soleil (Ka)
Text by Lucie MacAulay
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