Tuesday 18 June 2013

A Children's Rhyme




White Bride one, White Bride two,

We’re waiting in the dark for you,

Black Bride three, Black Bride four,

Angels’ children are at your door,

White Bride five, White Bride six,

Not priest, nor church, nor crucifix,

Black Bride seven, Black Bride eight,

Can save you from the open gates,

White Bride nine, White Bride ten,

What you knew once, you forgot then

Text by Lucie MacAulay

Iron-Rich




The music grew. It was a living thing, twisting and writhing, swelling, contracting, and swelling again.
When Mira glanced back to the clockwork toy, its key had stopped turning. The ivory swan was stagnant, unmoving, but the music continued, and in the crescendo Mira felt the velvety brush of fast blooming flowers on her skin, the heat of fevered skin, the kiss of a steel blade.
In the dim light the swan’s eyes, wine red, flickered. Mira stared at them as the garden, the light, the sky and the ground blurred together. The swan’s eyes were darker, murkier, red, red, red as blood, blood, blood…
Mira opened her mouth, the call for Valentine, but her breath was sucked away into some void and she staggered without it as the world pin wheeled in a gold and scarlet fury.
Mira dreamed, and what she dreamed was:
A mirage of gold swirls, parting before a mirror, and in it, her own reflection, but her eyes were black as night…
Someone was opening their wrist, splitting the sun-bronzed skin as though it were only stitched together, and blood rose and feel from it, iron-rich, and grey and metallic, then it burst with light, like liquid gold…
Green-tinted landscapes, as though the sun was eclipsed by an emerald. Then the streets flashed, and Mira blinked and the green was contained into coal-lined eyes…
Mira lay on a pile of plush cushions, languid, surrounded by candles and brassy music, like some ridiculous exequies being performed. But she was not dying, no, she was changing. Black feathers stuck to her arms. Metamorphesis, she thought, as she sunk deeper and deeper into the cushions that swayed and tossed her like a crimson sea…
Mira surfaced from the darkness like a leaf floating to the surface of a river, weak and tremulous.
The current of the river pushes her to consciousness and the realization that the green-eyed musician stood over her, watches as she blinked awaked. His gaze met hers and discarded all vestiges of sleep from her body.
“What happened?” she asked, when she noticed Valentine also stood over her, like a sentinel in black and gold.

Art by Fatima Batool 

Text by Lucie MacAulay

Pinwheel




Once upon a time… there was a land where everything, from the ground to the hearts of men, was made of ice. There was a child born from the snow and the shadow and the glass-like earth. The babe had Mazarin eyes and a complexion like virgin snow.
And in the same time, at another ‘once’, in another place, there was a child born with eyes like summer heat, and a crooning voice as devastating as the darkness of midnight on the high sea.
One might wonder what the sexes of the children were, and each child could be either sex, but for now we will say that the child of winter was a girl, and the summer child was a boy.
The girl lived where everything was frozen, including time. There was an endlessly in-between sky, and no thing on the landscape grew.
If she did not have a heart, she would not have grown. But she did, and it was a heart as pristine as ice, waiting for its first crack.
The summer boy grew up with the smell of apples and the spectrum of the shades of honey made at different times in the summer. He grew up slowly, listening to the lazy buzz of cicadas and dragonflies, watching ribbons of grass sway, rocking back and forth in a bower cradle made by trees.
One day, they were the same age. It did not matter that she grew in a frozen land or that he grew quickly. Whatever speeds at which they aged, there came a day when they were both young, both untouched, and both desperate to see the rest of the world.
She wanted to see the colours of a fire. Feel the heat of an ember or burning coal. She wanted to smell smoke. She wanted to feel time pass at steady intervals, instead of growing to the rate of her erratic heartbeat.
He wanted to feel the shock of ice on his skin. He wanted to skate across a frozen river, testing the surface, taunting it until it lost its patience and he tumbled down, down, down. He wanted to see snow, and the northern countries where the people’s breath was a constant ghostly companion.
And to the fanfare of their parents’ tears and sobs and their heartfelt encouragements and lamentations, she and he left walked past their gates and past the point where her frozen world melted into the world of spring and fall and summer and where his world withered into the world of fall and winter and budded into spring.
Where he went, like a wingless angel, made of fire and earth, people avoided his eyes. They could not avoid his skin – his  presence was like the pull of a magnet and he reminded them of childhood summers and long days eating peaches and short days with lovers in the shadows of magnolia trees – but his eyes were as bottomless as the ocean, and ringed with fire.
Wherever she went people shied away from her. She had an air that made mothers yearn to lock their arms around her and take her to their chests, a lostness they feared for their own children when they finally let them go. But she was chilly and the air around her was like a constant frost. Her gaze was like looking at yourself, seeing your reflection and yet not, seeing what others saw, and knowing what others knew. She made them feel as though she knew them more than they knew themselves. So they avoided her eyes and gazed at her perfect, frozen skin.
In his journey, summer faded to fall, and he recognized the colours of red and brown and purple, like berry juice and rust and dirt from the summer, but he did not recognize the chill wind. He took comfort in fireplaces, but touched windowpanes to see how long he could, before the decreasing temperature burned his palm.
Around her the winter became spring. She watched buds grow on trees and flowers push through the earth. She though how painful it must be, to have shoots and roots and new leaves unfurl from your skin, and she felt sorrow for the earth. But she delighted in the smells of crocuses and daffodils and wishes she had a garden in which to keep them and always return.
In some stories they never meet; they pass one another, close enough to touch, yet never seeing, too distracted with the seasons around them. So winter and summer come close, but never meet.
In our story, they do meet. On a day in fall, or in spring. It does not matter. But it was an in-between time, and he was emerging from a forest, like a soldier from the chaotic fray of battle, and she was weaving through grass, away from a town, pushing aside weeds like a rock parting water.
When he saw her, he saw emptiness. Death. A time frozen, and endings.
When she saw him, she saw fire. Inferno. A cycle of mortality.
When he saw her, he saw timelessness. An untouched quality. Beginnings.
When she saw him, she saw vitality. Endless lives intertwined. A world without beginning or end.
He led her, or she led him, in silence to a place in darkness. The darkness of his night, the darkness of her childhood, where he felt her snow-soft skin and she felt his flushed skin.
He told her stories. About apples and honey.
She told him stories. About heartbeat-time and icicles.
He kissed her first. Or she kissed him. But then he drew her down and she drew him close and the earth clashed in the colours of seasons, in tempests and storms. There was a forest fire, an earthquake, a drought, a flood. She breathed his breath. Lightning struck the ocean. He shuddered above her. Mountains crumbled.
In the morning, they emerged from their darkness like a mole from its hole, and saw the earth, devastated and ending. But already beginning again.
They were not prepared to let one another go.
They had to.
Their parting was the sigh of the earth in peace.
His skin was white with freeze-burns. Frost melted on his collar, dew-cold.
She was black with burns in the shapes of his fingers. Her lips were blistered and red.
He walked into summer. She walked into winter.
He kept the bees for honey. She froze the surfaces of ponds.
He touched his still-cold collarbone. She touched her lips.
On one half of the world, everything was living.
On the other half, everything, everyone, was waiting.

Art by Barbara Florcyzk

Text by Lucie MacAulay

Thursday 13 June 2013

La Cantartrice




Beware the beauty lurking in the night. Beware when she meets you in the twilight, beneath the cherry blossoms, with carnation pink lips the taste of sugar in her mouth.
Not much will come from kissing her but, when she begins to sing, well…
Run if you can. Cover your ears if you can’t.
Her voice is honey. Her voice is poison.
Her voice is the smell of roses on a summer night.
Her voice is the smell of copper and red-stained dirt on a battlefield.
Her voice is the place from your childhood, the trees and the flowers and the colour of the sky.
Her voice is the promise of a lonely oblivion to come, of the eternity after death.
Her voice is the dew on a spider’s web, hovering and glittering.
Her voice is the spider, approaching her victim slowly, with all the time in the world.
Her voice is the richness of chocolate, melting on one’s tongue.
Her voice is the black wine flavour of an ancient seedpod.
Her voice is the whisper of the wind, the caress of the tide.
Her voice is the roar and smoke of a fire, the tremor and shake of an earthquake.
When her voice is beneath your skin, in your breath, in your blood, she has your soul on the end of a fishing line, pulling slowly in.
When she has your hand pressed against her smooth skin, she has your soul within her grasp.
When your eyes flutter shut and her breath is in your ear, there is nothing to do but accept her kiss. Her carnation-pink, blood-red kiss.
And taste her voice and the flavour of her song.

Art by Ludovic Jacqz

Text by Lucie MacAulay

Lost and Beginning




Piper pushed a handful of dirhams across the table before cupping her earthenware mug of mint tea and blowing on the surface. Through the steam she watched the wizened man collect the notes and tuck them into some nether-pocket of his robe.
Razi had turned out to be an elderly man who was surprisingly lively and spoke very fluent English, with the slight guttural lilt that everyone in this country had. He shifted from Arabic to English with such ease, like a melody rolling off his tongue.
Though it did not to ease her, and Piper found herself still on edge since discovering her uncle missing.
On that day, she had woke before her uncle, when the house was in the quiet and intimate hum of a sunlit morning. She crept from room to room, across the landing, and through the labyrinth of hallways to the kitchen, silent as a shadow.
After breakfast, Piper had gone into the gardens and explored. When the heat of the day made her recede into the shadows of the tall bushes and the reptilian stone statues, she returned to the house, but her uncle was still not up. The staff was out of the house for the weekend, and in their absence, the quiet was disquieting.
Her uncle was jubilant and kind, intelligent, if a little eccentric, but his large household, filled with staff, oddities, and half devoted (another word) to a menagerie of exotic and large reptiles and amphibians.
Her own bed was a metal contraption that seemed to have grown through a tree; for there was dark polished wood twisted around the iron legs and headboard, and decorated with snakeheads and twisted serpent bodies at the end. Everything in her room was furnished in shades of green, like the skin of a large iridescent serpent.
Piper had explored one of the floors for a while, being as unobtrusive as she could while still taking the time to notice his reading material (mostly studies of botany and anatomy) and look at photographs of him and her father, and her father and her mother.
When it was past mid-day, a time to which her uncle never slept, Piper made her way to his room, knocked several times, then opened the door and entered.
The temperature dropped suddenly at the sight of the empty bed.
Piper forced herself to calm and made a pot of tea to settle her stomach.
At nightfall she lay in her bed, knowing sleep would not come easily, and keeping the door open to be sure she would hear any sign of her uncle’s – or anyone else’s – presence in the house.
The next day his bed was untouched. The house was silent, and only the weekday staff kept Piper’s panic at bay.
Piper had contacted the authorities but they had been abrupt and told her that they did not meddle in Mr.Montgomery’s affairs.
Mrs.Bee, the housekeeper, had offered very little on her uncle’s disappearance, and only reiterated that he sometimes went on business trips on short notice, but Piper did not muss her anxiously twisting fingers or bitten lips.
The days had stretched on and blurred into a haze of shades of green and the hissing of snakes, the silence of the house and the smell of scones Mrs.Bee baked to comfort her.
Mrs.Bee had even drawn Piper out into the garden to distract her, but the familiar feeling of lostness had returned and in her uncle’s absence, Pipier had not been able to mask it.
Finally it became too much, and Piper resolved to track down her uncle.
After a long mental battle with herself in which Piper convinced herself it was for the purpose of investigation rather than curiousity, she went into her uncle’s study.
While the rest of the house was a cluttered organized collection of artifacts and curiosities, the study was in complete disarray; strewn with papers and maps and atlases.
In the spirit of inquiry, Piper discovered one of the drawers of the desk was full of broken compasses, another with documents in several languages she didn’t recognize but that all bore her uncle’s signature.
It would take days to sort through the disheveled piles of paper, but a sheaf of paper, on which was scrawled a sort of makeshift calendar, caught her eye. A date was circled – the date her uncle had gone.
Razi’s name and address had been scratched beneath it in smudged ink.
The address was in Marrakesh. In Morocco. The trip alone would cost more money than she could dream of having.
But some further rifling through files revealed another unexpected surprise.
To her delight, Piper discovered she was rich.
Indirectly.
Her uncle had bank accounts full of money set up in several parts of the world and had arranged for her to have access to each.
From there is had been a matter of persuading Mrs.Bee to help her arrange the trip.
The housekeeper had been adamant that Piper stay in the house until her uncle’s return but, as Piper pointed out, she would be leaving whether Mrs.Bee helped her or not, it would only be easier with the housekeeper’s help.
Mrs.Bee had relented, grudgingly.
Only days later, Piper was wandering through Marrakesh in search of the Jema el-Fna.
It was like navigating through a hedge maze, unable to see her way beyond the crowds. There were more alleys and streets here than there were paths in her uncles garden and it was only through elaborate charades that she managed to get some directions from the locals to the Jema el-Fna.
The harsh squawking of vendors and the boisterous shouting of dust-covered vested boys made her shy away from the large crowds. She wanted to find the square as quickly as she could, retreat from the crowds.
But she has instead began meandering through the derbs and the medhina at a more leisurely pace that later made her feel ashamed.
She was enthralled by the liveliness and the colours of the market. The silver trinkets, the pointy shoes, the elaborately decorated souks, and the textiles that billowed overhead like the aurora borealis.
Piper did not venture up to a stall until she spotten a long of chain of roughly cut turquoise stones. She tries, unsuccessfully, to haggle for it in English, and finally handed the vendor a handful of dirhams she suspected was more than the requested price.
Piper slipped the stones around her neck and wandered on, occasionally stopping to admire a carving in teakwood, or and animal rendered from a seedpod, or to watch a weaver at work at her loom.
Though the crowds had before made her uneasy, the sheer number of people was more than she had even seen, the constant noise, the rise and fall of conversation and laughter thrilled her.
The market square was permeated by the smell of cinnamon, rosewater, and pie made from some bird she highly suspected was pigeon.
It was a riot of merchants, gossiping women in colourful robes, men smoking cigars in doorways, musicians, and barefoot children grabbing pastries from under the ones of unassuming and distracted bakers, melting away into the alleyways like shadows.
Piper slipped out of her own sandals, hot and tight with leather and multiple complicated straps, and dangled them from her fingers as she sat outside a café and ordered a mint tea (again with charades), watching a snake charmer call a serpent from its open basket and make it dance.
Then, in a rush of shame and self-loathing for enjoying herself while her uncle was missing, she had inquired to the waitor of the cafe, first in English, then in disjointed and hastily-memorized Arabic and Berber when he did not catch her meaning, if they had heard of a man called Razi.
The waitor informed her that Razi was a frequent customer and would be along soon, if not the next day.
So Piper had relaxed in her chair and was watching the market again when RAzi found her and remarked that she stuck out like a sore thumb.
Piper inquired about her uncle’s whereabouts, but Razi said he had not seen her uncle in some time, not in years.
Gradually the excitement and wonder she had discovered in wandering the market dissipated, replaced by dread and anxiety, that only deepened as their conversation continued.
The sun was eclipsed by the cupola atop a tower and they were both cast in it shadow for a long chilling moment.
“You heard nothing in the night?” Razi asked.
Piper shook her head. “I woke up and thought he was asleep, so I didn’t disturb him. But after a while I thought he might want me to wake him, so he didn’t miss the whole day. When I went to his room, he was gone. He could have left that morning, or he could have never gone to bed. His bed was made, and it was cold.”
“You found my address in his study?” Razi asked.
Piper nodded. “And a map right under it.”
Razi raised his eyebrows. “Do you have the map with you?”
Piper nodded again and withdrew it from her bag. It was large than the table and rippled in the breeze, but they held it down wth their mugs of tea.
Piper did not know how to read a map, though she had traced her fingers along the lines of rivers and borders in her father’s study long ago.
This map was foreign to her and, like almost everything else in her uncle’s map, in shades of green.
Piper pointed to a circled region of the map. “Do you think he could be there?” she asked.
Razi leaned back and took a sip of his tea, holding down the corner of the map his cup had previously held down with his hand.
“I think it would be worth it to find out.”

Text by Lucie MacAulay

Descent




“I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, 
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.” 
 Pablo Neruda


She occupied the space between heartbeats, the time between seconds. The moments in the dark when his thoughts were half coherent and dusky with sleep.
He caught her eye, a glimpse of mazarine, and saw her, saw into her. Beyond her eyes was a labyrinth, a mazelike network of thoughts and notes, and her movements were the tranquil hum of a cello, her smile like the keen of a violin.
He watched her alongside the angel, slipping from the room and back into it as smoothly as velvet, weaving around the crowds with a practiced grace. She moved lightly, was golden and rich, tinged with a heady darkness, like silver. Paradoxically enthralling.
She clearly did not belong here.
His wings shuddered when he caught her gaze again, and this time, she held it. He cast his eyes down but her eyes on him was like holding warm bronze to his skin, and he felt it like a burning.
She was gone again when he looked back, and the stirring in his blood, the sudden a consistent pump, faltered.
He felt as though he were tipping. He teetered on the edge of an abyss, filled with darkness and moonlight and whispers. And it was a longed-for descent, that ended with light and mazarine eyes.

Art by Candi

Text by Lucie MacAulay

Friday 7 June 2013

Made Up Monsters




“Oh, but that’s all just stories,” Jack scoffed, waving a hand as though to banish the idea of monsters from the air.
“They weren’t always stories,” Arianwyn said, shifting the reins in her hands, and the horse turned from the main road and into the woods.
Around them the houses were dwindling, and the respectable establishments of the town were few. The forest was thickening and they saw little before them but leaves and green sunlight.
“Time was, man knew that they weren’t stories. They knew to keep their cattle safe from Red Caps and not just wolves. They knew that if they wanted to be rich all they needed was to fill the well with acorns, or meet Puck in the ferns the first midnight of summer, or find the fairies’ Golconda. They new that a rowan tree planted by the door meant protection, and that blood keep the fields growing. But time changed, and they stopped believing. Now the old ways are just that: old.”
“I bet that never happened,” Jack said, but his stomach curdled with fear at the thought of blood.
Arianwyn shrugged. “You’ve seen them. You’ve seen the kelpie and the selkie and the noonday twister. You can’t say they aren’t real.”
“I wish you weren’t real,” Jack muttered, not loud enough for Arianwyn to hear him.
As they rode further and further from the villages and the houses disappeared altogether, Jack’s anxiety grew. Without the grounded and rational civilization around him, Arianwyn’s explanations seemed to plausible. Their journey to Faerie too real.
“How long are we staying there?” Jack asked, expecting Arianwyn to answer with a ‘not very’ or ‘only a day or so’.
“You see, traditionally visits to Faerie are seven years long, or somewhere about that,” Arianwyn said. “But don’t worry, we won’t stay nearly that long. There’s too much to do. We simply need their help.”
“So how long will we stay?”
Arianwyn shrugged, and in the dimming light the movement was the shudder of a shadow. “However long it takes, I suppose. We’re making good time.”
Jack looked around them and ahead of them, but nothing suggested they were on the route to Faerie. There were no twinkling lights, no bowers of blossoms, no heaven-sweet music. “When do you think we’ll get there?” he asked.
“What? Faerie? Oh, whenever we want. It takes seconds to get there really.”
Jack paused and stumbled, though Arianwyn, on the horse, did not notice, and he had to jog to catch up to her. “So why aren’t we there? Aren’t we going to Faerie?” He was the smallest bit hopeful she would smile down at him and tell him it was all a joke, a terrible, terrifying joke. But she looked straight ahead, squinting in the light of the setting sun.
“Yes, but we need to stop somewhere first. We need to get a guide. I don’t know much about Faerie and it’s a bad idea to go wandering about the home of the Good People without someone who’s been there before. Especially someone who knows how to make a deal with them. Remember: they won’t sympathize with us. They chose neither Heaven nor Hell so they’ll make a deal for something they want.”
Jack’s shoulders slumped. He had nothing to give them; his pockets were empty of goods and full of holes, and every penny he had at home went to his sister, who was away. They could maybe make a few coins doing some chores in the village they had passed, but not nearly enough, he thought, to make a deal with the faeries. His impossible task seemed even more impossible and suddenly he only wanted to lie down.
“Jack,” Arianwyn called from in front of him. “Should I slow down? Or are you going slower?”
“I’m going slower,” he replied despondently, and jogged up beside the horse. “So who are we going to see?”
“I’m not sure,” Arianwyn said, her pale brow furrowing. “He’s a smart man. It’s a shame he’s in the asylum.”
Asylum!” Jack yelled. “He’s in an asylum? Well, let’s just hire every man in the loony bin and ask him about fairies!” He spat the word contemptuously.
Arianwyn scowled at him. “He’s not mad. He’s touched. By Faerie. Lots of people who come back are called mad. But he’s clever and useful, and I believe he’ll help us.”
Jack fell silent, and after some time, he fell behind again, though this time it was from exhaustion. His legs became anchors and all he wanted was to sink to the ground. Arianwyn offered him the horse but he insisted that its steady sway would only put him to sleep, and he’d fall off of it.
“We can settle here for the night then,” she said, looking around the woods. It was clear she did not like the idea of a night in the dark wilderness, but she also appeared too fatigued to continue.
They hardly spoke as they lay down, under the foliage next to a large tree some ways from the road.
Arianwyn whispered a goodnight, which Jack returned, and then there was only the lull of the crickets and night creatures to send him to sleep.

Art by Sean Wong Jia Jun

Text by Lucie MacAulay

Cirque de la Lune Playlist



Sock Pupptes/Flyover - Iain Ballamy

Seven Days - Azure Ray

Porcelain - Moby

The Beauty Surrounds - Houses

Butterfingers - Iain Ballamy

Siren Song - Bat For Lashes

If I Apologised - Iain Ballamy

Cinder and Smoke - Iron & Wine

Text by Lucie MacAulay

Ribbons & Salt Playlist



Sudden Throw - Olafur Arnalds

The Myth of Creation - Iain Ballamy

Boy With A Coin - Iron & Wine

Art by Joanne Young

Text by Lucie MacAulay

Dragonflies & Turquoise Playlist



Dreams Are Dangerous - Sabastian Wolff & Bruno Coulais

Thinking About Tomorrow - Beth Orton

Terra Firma - Delerium feat. Aude

Glasshouse - Thom Hanreich

Healing Katniss - James Newton Howard

Key of the Twilight - Hack.//Sign

Serpent Charmer - Iron & Wine

Art by Eli Vokounova

Text by Lucie MacAulay

The Dream Thief Playlist



Haegt Kemur Ljosio - Olafur Arnalds

A Quiet Darkness - Houses

A Narnia Lullaby - Harry Greg-Willson

Close to You - Iain Ballamy

Arms of a Thief - Iron & Wine

Art by Liga Klavina

Text by Lucie MacAulay