The beach was
full, an odd sight; not because there was never anyone on it, but because it
was the dead of night, so dark that it was difficult to tell the black water
apart from the black sky, since they were both dusted with stars and filled
with the tinsel-silver light of the moon.
Someone had
taken care to set up lanterns closer to the shore, determined flames in wicker
and plastic lamps stuck to poles dug deep into the sand. Their light carved
rosy haloes out of the darkness. There were more lanterns in the festival,
strung up between the noisy stalls on the boardwalk. Nimue walked just beside
the boardwalk, where she could smell the sea, where the water was no more than
twenty feet from her. She’d never thought the sea smelled like salt and tonight
it smelled almost wintery with its freshness, as though the dark pulled from it
every summery note.
There were
several silhouettes on the beach, dancing in front of the lanterns. A few
couples were walking in the surf, their shoes dangling from their hands. Nimue
had abandoned her own shoes long ago and tucked them into her mother’s bag
while she walked. She’d left Tristram to debate whether or not taking off his
shoes was worth it, and then to argue with their mother about how wise it was
to remove one’s shoes if one were staying on the boardwalk. No one had broken a
bottle on it yet, Nimue noticed. But she hadn’t wanted to be a part of their
argument.
None of the
silhouettes were familiar. Nimue almost didn’t notice the ones approaching her
until they were only a couple yards away, and then she wondered how she could
have missed them. She wondered for a moment, with some dread, if someone from
school had recognized her alone in the festival. But it was no one she knew; a
band of five people stood before her, and as soon as they realized they had her
attention, they began to dance and sing. Nimue was so shocked and stunned by
the abruptness of their routine that she did not realize for a moment that it
was not all of them singing at once, only two of them, or three. The resonance
in their voices sounded like the hiss of the sea, though she couldn’t remember
if it had been that loud a moment ago. She recognized none of their words, but
the song was arcane, lulling, and oddly hungry. Their dance was odd to watch
and would have been embarrassing if she did not see the ripple of muscle in the
lantern-light. They leapt over the sand, trailing it from their toes, from the
folds of their clothing.
“The hell?”
Tristram’s bare feet pounded on the boardwalk. He dropped into the sand,
fumbling with the laces of his sneakers, twisted together in his fingers. He
wobbled unsteadily as he strode toward his sister. “You said you were going to
look for a drink. Of course you’re down by the water- what?”
“Dancers,” Nimue
said, as though Tristram weren’t staring at them.
“Really,”
Tristram said. The look he turned on the performers was at once inviting and
dismissive. Their mother often said Tristram could charm the birds out of
trees, and it was apparent in every feature of his face, in the wide smile and
his fine-boned nose as he tilted his head down. He had laughing eyes, bright
and amused, though one couldn’t be sure, looking at him, if they had done
something to amuse him, or if he had found his own amusement outside of present
company. He swept his gaze over the dancers and his smile widened. One of the
dancers, a singer, Nimue thought, watching her lips move, glanced at Tristram’s
smile and returned it, with several degrees more warmth. But she did not cease
her singing. Their voices were less the hiss of the ocean and more a swell,
rising and falling together as though buoyed on a wave. Tristram leaned forward
and spoke lowly in Nimue’s ear. She almost leaned away from him; he smelled of
cider and his whisper was cold and pointed as an icicle. “Are they homeless? Do
they want money or something?”
Nimue did not
think it was money that they were after.
Tristram moved
Nimue and himself further from the boardwalk, or at least turned them against
the stares of anyone who might notice that they stood before a band of nimble
but disorganized dancers. They were a little closer to the sea and, as if the
sea were climbing the shore toward them, Nimue smelled sand and waterweed and
the nearly bloody scent of water. Nimue could still smell cinnamon doughnuts
and ginger cake and lemon tea from the boardwalk. Tristram had one hand holding
his other elbow, his shoes still dangling by his side, though he was swinging
them almost rhythmically, though Nimue didn’t think the song the performers
sang had a rhythm. Nothing consistent, anyway. It seemed to skip and flow, as
though they sang around rocks.
Something
fluttered at their feet. Nimue let herself look at it for a moment and
realized, with some surprise, that it was a fox. Though she wasn’t sure she’d
ever seen a fox that colour, starry white and mottled with grey like the skin
of a seal. She stared at it hard, trying to figure out if it had been there
before. Its paws were dug deep into the sand, as though the beach had shifted
around it. It returned her look with a hint of cleverness and tilted its head
as though to tell her listen. The song’s
not over.
Nimue nudged
Tristram to try to point to the fox, but he knocked her hand aside and
continued to gave politely at the dancers. He looked away once, to the watch on
his wrist. It was an hour behind but it told Nimue that she had been listening
to the song for nearly twenty minutes. She frowned, aware that the performers
could see it. She hadn’t realized she’d been listening that long.
The song began
to wind down. Nimue was not sure how she knew, only the it was like a rolling
tide slowing and gentling. When it finally came to an end it seemed to linger
like salt spray. Tristram nodded and clapped his free hand against his leg in
an approximation of applause. “Nice. That was great.”
One of the
dancers, a fair-skinned and raven-haired man so tall that he seemed to bend
forward out of habit of speaking to everyone shorter than him, leaned forward
and blinked silky black eyes at them. “Thank you. That’s kind.”
“I’ve never seen
a dance like that before,” Tristram said. If anyone else had said it, it might
have sounded like an invitation to share. When Tristram said it it was a polite
and detached observation.
The black-haired
man turned to Nimue. The fox in the sand turned with him. The performers
assembled in front of Tristram and Nimue like carolers. “I would like to know
what you think, love. Did you enjoy it? Did it please you?”
Nimue folded her
arms over her chest, felt the uncomfortable stickiness of her skin in the
summer heat, and dropped them again. “I don’t really like the share the things
that please me with complete strangers.”
Tristram’s elbow
was sharp in her ribs. He hissed, “Nimue.”
The black-haired
dancer did not look offended, though. He smiled, his dark lips stretched
widely. He tilted his head at her, as though she had won something. Nimue tried
to recall if he’d been one of the ones singing, but she couldn’t. “That is your
right, Nimue.” When he said her name a shiver rolled over her shoulders, as
though someone trailed icy fingertips from one shoulder blade to the other. The
dancer’s gave drifted from Nimue to the woman beside him. She was older than
Tristram, though only just, with raggedly cut hair and hawthorn-berry lips.
There were flowers strung through her hair, white, like narcissus, though Nimue
didn’t think narcissus grew anywhere near them. They hung on dark green strands,
like dried waterweed. The woman looked back at him for only a second, but the
fox trotted closer to them. It turned an identical gave on Nimue.
Tristram was
patting his pockets, as though he’d only just remembered what he’d told Nimue and
realized that because the dancers had performed for them only, he had to offer
them something. “I don’t have any change on me,” he said. “I mean, if I found
our mum I could buy you all a drink or something. There’s cider and ale.
There’s a good pint back down the boardwalk. But you performed for the wrong
people. We don’t carry anything in our pockets.”
“We’d accept
another singer,” said one of the dancers. She had definitely been a singer. She
had a face wizened as an old rose bush. Her hands moved lightly through the
air. Her hair drifted and slipped over her shoulders. She was wearing a wispy
white shirt, one that looked like the sort of thing Nimue’s grandmother might
wear, but it was sprayed with salt. The wet patches were just visible in the
lantern light where they clung to her arms and ribs. Nimue saw that her nails
were softened as beach glass, glittering as if with sugar. “We’ve been losing
singers for some time. Dancers we’d also accept, but we need voices with us.”
The fox bowed
its head and looked for a moment as though it might burrow its head into the
sand. Then it leapt on something in the sand, though Nimue hadn’t seen anything
move. The performers looked sad and fierce, like a band of knights afore a
cave. But the darkness was behind them, the dark ocean heaving in the dark sky.
Nimue wondered how many of them there had been to start, of it there had been a
start. If they’d been shedding some of their number and making them back so
long they could not know themselves where they started.
Tristram opened
his mouth and Nimue could tell he was about to say something that would reveal
how absurd he found the request, how he believed, truly, that they were joking.
So before he could, she said, “You’re not from around here, are you? And you’re
not travelling by car?”
Tristram tapped
Nimue’s elbow and almost scowled. “Don’t be stupid. They didn’t walk here if
they’re from out the city. They’re not travelling on foot.”
“They could, if
they don’t have too much luggage,” Nimue said.
The black-haired
performer raised a brow and turned. The other performers stepped aside and
pointed down the beach, where there was another silhouette on the sand, closer
to the surf than the boardwalk, undisturbed and black against the lantern
light. There was a sled resting atop the sand, a collection of suitcases on it.
They looked as though, full, they would be too heavy for a single person to
cart across the sand, even on a sled. But there was only one figure at the hind
of the sled, hands curled around the sled’s handles. He was turned forward,
away from them, but there was a stillness about him that spoke to Nimue of
intent.
Nimue’s stomach
twisted and flipped as she tried to look more closely at the shadowed face,
then looked at the shape and length of the fingers on the sled instead.
“You really are
hitchhiking, huh?” Tristram said. “Christ, that’s bold. What about in the
winter? It’s the summer and the nights get cold anyway. How can you dance, or
even travel?”
“Tonight is the
shortest night of the year,” said the blonde dancer with hawthorn lips.
Tristram looked to her instantly, taking in the soft angles of her face and icy
beauty, but the dancer was looking at Nimue when she spoke.
“Obviously,”
Nimue said, watching the figure at the sled. The figure didn’t look at her, but
Nimue thought she saw the slightest tilt of the figure’s shoulders, as though
she had been heard. She wanted the figure to know that she knew what night it
was, that she knew a lot.
“Look, if you
wait a minute, I’ll bring my mum over, honestly,” Tristram said. “She didn’t
see your dance but she’s got our money on her. I’ll buy you a round if you
want. Or something to eat. Maybe you can sing again for her, yeah? She’s just a
little bit back on the walk. She’d be totally- wait just a minute.”
Tristram turned
and trudged up the sand, leaping onto the boardwalk. He didn’t bother to put
his shoes back on but walked on the worn wood. The boardwalk was loud, but as
though he’d closed a door between the beach and the boardwalk, it was quiet on
the sand. Nimue could hear the sea breathing on the edge of the sand. They
hadn’t gotten closer to the sea, but it seemed louder anyway. The black-haired
dancer’s eyes followed Tristram away, then returned to Nimue when the crowd had
closed in on her brother.
“Will you sing
with us, then?” he asked. “Or dance? I think you’d prefer to sing, though.”
“That’s quite an
assumption,” Nimue said. “I don’t want you to ask me-” She nodded at the figure
behind the sled. “I want him to ask me.”
The performers turned
back again to the silent one holding their belongings. The figure reminded
Nimue almost of the ferryman that brought souls across the river of the
underworld. She saw now that the white and grey fox at the performers’ feet was
not the only one. There were a couple more on the sleigh, though their fur was
wet, plastered to them like a pelt. Their black eyes flashed as they turned
toward and away from the lanterns.
“He won’t speak
to you,” the older singer said. There was a huskiness in her voice as though
she did not have the energy for anger. “That isn’t his purpose. He is here to
bring us where we need to go, that’s all.”
“Where is that?”
Nimue asked. “To my brother and I? To me? What for?”
One of the
singer’s looked taken aback, but the black-haired dancer spoke calmly. “We did
not choose you, exactly. We ask every one for a singer. We go up and down the
water to ask. We try to collect singers and dancers. Every summer. We dance. We
sing-”
“We have to go
back before the winters freezes everything over,” the blonde dancer said. Nimue
wasn’t sure that the dancer was worried about “everything”, but she didn’t ask
what the dancer really was worried about, or if it had anything to do with her.
“I know you,”
Nimue said, speaking from a memory. “I remember you last summer. You came to
the docks and sang. My dad was on his boat. He heard you.” They didn’t ask
after her father, and she didn’t tell them who he was. “You had more then. And
it wasn’t you. Different singers and dancers, but it was your kind, wasn’t it?”
“Your kind” didn’t seem polite, but the performers were noble and unbothered by
it.
On the
boardwalk, as though sound were bleeding through the invisible door between the
festival and the beach, Nimue’s mother sounded annoyed and as though she were
fighting Tristram, who was probably pulling her down the boardwalk. The figure
behind the sled slid his hands back so the heel of his hands were nearly
pushing against the handles. He tapped a finger once. Nimue saw it, though she
did not hear it.
The performers
did not see it. The elderly dancer nodded at Nimue. “We are using up the night.
There is only so much of it left. We need to leave now. Are you coming to sing
with us?”
“Are you going
to bring me back?” Nimue said.
“At the end of
the night, maybe,” said the black-haired man. He exchanged a look with the fox,
who looked judging and hard. “Maybe in the winter. Maybe next summer.”
“Maybe next
summer,” Nimue echoed.
Tristram was
almost upon them, with their mother. Their mother sounded aggrieved to have
been pulled this far along the boardwalk, and more aggrieved to be led toward
the sand. “I did not agree to talking my shoes off. Tristram- Tristram! I’d
rather you were getting drunk with your friends if you’re going to spend the
night dragging me hither and-”
“Do you really
need me?” Nimue asked.
“I don’t think I
should share with a complete stranger what I do or do not need,” the
black-haired man said.
Nimue almost
appreciated his words. It made the thrumming in her hands lessen, but she could
not stop from fidgeting with the bangles on her wrist. “Next summer, really?”
The figure on
the beach gave the sled a push. It moved a few inches across the sand, not far
at all, but enough to send a jolt through Nimue’s chest. The performers took a
step back across the sand. Nimue thought maybe the figure had heard the
hesitation in her words and wished that he hadn’t. She wished he would give her
another minute, but he moved the sled another couple of inches. The ocean
suddenly seemed hungry behind him.
“It might be,”
the black-haired dancer said, gently. But no one looked as though they believed
him.
“You’ve only
just asked me,” Nimue said, frantic and angry at her jitteryness. The
performers were moving across the sand toward the sled, with much more
organization than they had danced with. The lanterns on the shore rendered then
like ink. The ocean heaved onto the shore.
“And now you
have just to decide,” one of the dancers called back. Nimue could not tell
which it was, and she was distracted from trying to deduce who it was by the
fox throwing itself toward the shore. It cleared the front of the sled, then
turned abruptly and sped back to it, as though something in the water had
spooked it, though Nimue saw nothing on the shore. The other foxes on the sled
moved restlessly, looking less like a nest and more like a tangled, shifting
knot. The sled’s driver whistled at them, clear and colourless as water, and
the foxes settled. The one that had raced toward the water still looked that
way, its ears pricked up in the warm wind.
Tristram pulled
his mother to the edge of the boardwalk and hopped into the sand. “Here, mum.”
“What did you
and Nimue want to show me?” Their mother asked.
Tristram and his
mother looked at the empty sand and the couples crowded around the lanterns on
the shore.
Tristram looked
up and down the length of the sea. “Nimue?”
Art by Barbara Florczyk
Textby Lucie MacAulay