Hazel’s mother’s rooms are
not off limits but Hazel does not feel any desire to go in, any curiousity
about what lays inside. Perhaps it is because of the lack of forbiddances that
she does not care to explore them. Hazel is drawn to delitescent places, or
places her father adopts rules for or boundaries. Her mother’s room holds no
mystery, nothing enigmatic or inspiring excavation. Hazel knows her father had
most of his belongings moved into separate rooms he them claimed for himself,
and he bought a new bed. Now all she can think of that may be in her mother’s
rooms are relics from the days she spent with her husband, her perfume, the
clothing of hers that has not been passed to her daughter, and mementos of
places she has traveled. Hazel always wanders past the door to her mother’s
rooms without glancing at it.
Now she stands before her
mother’s door and wonders what lies beyond.
The door is unlocked but
the wood protests when Hazel pushes it open.
While most of the house is saturated in colour, this room is pale
and soft. The walls are white, tinged yellow in some places by water stains.
The curtains are ill fitted and the draft coming through the window makes them
billow half the length of the room like a veil of white mist. There are silk
screens covering an entire wall, raw and papery.
There is a bed of white pillows, covered with a fine layer of dust.
A few chairs sit by the window, around a teakwood table where an ash filled
incense burner lies, ash trickling over the edges and settles like mould in the
inlaid mosaic of the table top.
Pictures of couples and families lined the wall. Mr.Everill and his
wife, each with hats casting shadows across their faces, before a cow led by a
turban wearing merchant. A gang of children, shirtless and brown in the sun,
running down a road lined with stalls, beneath black and white flags that, were
the picture coloured, would have waved like a rainbow ocean blocking out the
blue sky. Hazel’s mother wearing a half smile, clutching her hat as a wind
blows past, a plume of smoke rushing up to meet her face as she bends over a
concoction in a pot in the shadow of a derb. A map is tacked to the wall,
showing the labyrinth of alleyways in a medhina.
Hazel explores briefly,
pulling open drawers and the wardrobe doors. There are only a few articles of
clothing in the wardrobe.
The vanity is bare but the
trick bottom of one of the drawers springs open under Hazel’s touch, scattering
spider husks and beads separated from their chain. There is a collection of
papers, yellowed with age.
In the cave of white silk,
sorting through business papers and personal letters, Hazel does not notice the
other presence in the room until she speaks.
“It is like living inside
a pearl, isn’t it?” the voice asks.
Hazel turns in surprise,
holding the papers to her chest. She
stands on the other side of the great chest at the foot of the bed.
“You’ve been in here
before?” Hazel retaliates.
“Yes,” she says. She
pauses before gesturing at the chest. “I have never seen inside that. If you
would open it, I think it would satisfy both of our curiousities.”
While Hazel is not
particularly curious about the contents of her mothers’ trunk, she obliges her. Hazel ascertains there is no lock,
and lifts the lid with some difficulty, for it is very heavy.
The trunk is full of
clothing. Too precious and formal for casual wear. Cedar, moth-ridden linen
wrapped around delicate tulle and lace gowns ad sashes. Silk flowers and
crinolines rustle against embroidered bodices and pearl necklaces.
Hazel sees little of
interest, but she watches carefully
as Hazel pulls out gown after gown.
“You look just like your
mother,” she says, tilting her head
to a picture on the wall. In the faded daguerreotype Hazel’s mother wears the
same gown Hazel now holds up against her own chest.
“You look like her,” Hazel
realizes. She does not reply, but
watches thoughtfully as Hazel arranged the dresses once more in the trunk,
wrapping them in linen as neatly as she can. The papers in her hand are
crumpled, all but abused as she folds the last of the gowns.
Hazel guiltily spreads them
carefully on the floor. The letters are in worse condition, the business
papers, and the three typeset official documents are creased and folded. Hazel
draws the latter from the pile, inspecting them carefully.
The first is her birth
certificate. Hazel wonders if her father has another copy he keeps in a more
accessible place, or if he has no need for it.
The second document is a
copy of her birth certificate. Hazel glances between the two papers, confused.
The names catch her eye. Same dates. Different names. Twins.
The third document is a
death certificate. It bears the same name as the second birth certificate, and
is three days post the birth date.
Hazel wonders if it is a
draft or something else that has made the room grow suddenly colder.
“I have a sister?” Hazel
asks, looking up. But she sits alone, and her words barely stir the dust.
Text by Lucie MacAulay
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