Nighttime in the
desert is different from nighttime anywhere else. Darkness stretches form
horizon to horizon as though it’s been pasted there. Any light beneath it is
somewhat miraculous. If there weren’t other miracles in the desert, ones more
influential than luminosity, people might make speculations about light in the
desert. But the real miracles were loitering around an enormous box truck,
looking up at the starts, or ahead at the mountains, or down at the thin layer
of dust that the wind sometimes kicked up. The stars were interesting because
they had been shifting for the last hour- shifting was not the right word.
Showering sounded better, but it was not right either. They looked like
raindrops running into each other on a pane of glass.
The mountains
were interesting because they were high, alpine creations and somehow still
radio waves and waves of other sorts strained over their peaks. They were
formidable and unmovable and no match for the tiny antenna on the tiny radio they’d
taken from the oldest girl’s mother’s kitchen.
The dust was not
as interesting, but it wasn’t the dust that was being looked at. The girl with
her eyes on the dust was truly looking at a narrative in her own mind, in which
she climbed into the box truck and drew gratuitously large and circuitous lines
all over the desert floor with its wheels, and then turned those wheels toward
the mountains and together she and the truck gallivanted into the sunset, away.
The narrative stopped there, because she has no use for anything that came
after that. Away was the best outcome in this scenario, so away was the happy
ending.
The box truck
had once been more box truck than it was now. It had been decked out with parts
of other cars that the girls had owned, fixed, scrapped, or just come across.
Only one or two pieces had been liberated illegally for the express purpose of
making the box truck look a little less like a box truck. This was Camila’s
fault. The box truck currently resided on the flattest piece of desert Camila
could find, surrounded by scrub, far from town. It was faded, though Camila
would have liked to put another coat of paint on it. It was high off the
ground, though Camila would have preferred there was only an inch of breath
between it and the sand. The seats were not leather, though Camila would have
preferred to burn herself sitting in them on a hot day.
The truck had a
single fracture in the windshield, which was weathering it valiantly. A pair of
miniature boxing gloves were strung up on the rearview mirror. The truck had
license plates from California, but it had spent so much time in Colorado that
no one remembered that it’s native state was not Colorado.
The radio was
not broken, but the entire box truck was having issues constantly. It had a
tempestuous relationship with the heat, with the sand, with its own rusting
insides, and with its age, so the radio played intermittently and moodily. The
radio that played was in the cargo area. It almost disappeared in the dark,
because it was made of a dark red that matched the countertop it had been taken
from. It played a radio station from town, one that was owned by Piper’s
brother’s wife’s sister’s best friend. It broadcasted rock and roll. It
broadcasted Piper’s brother’s wife’s sister’s best friend’s voice. It broadcasted
songs that made Camila think that if the radio had muscles, they would all be
straining at once to push these songs out.
The radio had
been taken from Sofia’s mother’s kitchen, but the truck was Camila’s. Though
this story belongs to every one of the Cortez sisters, it belongs more to
Camila than either of the other two. Camila was not in love with the radio
station, but it was her heart powering the truck, allowing the AM radio waves
in. She and the box truck shared the same calculating expression. If someone
were to slash one of the slightly deflated tires of the box truck, Camila would
bleed.
“Here’s another
one to soothe you into that lazy summer night feel,” the DJ said. “This song is
made for the PM. No daylight songs now.”
Piper tilted her
head toward the radio, as she always did when the DJ spoke, like an attentive
animal hearing the call of its own. Piper was selectively attentive. She was
the youngest of the Cortez sisters, and her name was not actually Cortez. But
she did not care for her name. She cared for being left alone when she wanted
to be alone, and approached and kept around when she wanted to hover. She had
hair pulled strictly away from her face, and eyes downcast from the weight of
her thinking brain behind them. The lantern in the bed of the box truck was
behind her, which meant her freckles disappeared. She was wearing a thin
blouse, which meant she was thinking hard; when so much of her thought was
devoted to something specific, there was too little to inform her that she was
cold. There were several beaded and tasseled bracelets around her right wrist,
because she wrote and fiddled with her left hand.
In the daytime,
she did not lean against the box truck and think. In the day, she learned how
to drive in her father’s Dodge truck, and read and pondered the many places
outside Colorado. She looked at pictures of places that bore no resemblance to
the high alpine desert. This curiosity worried her mother and her father and
her grandmother. It worried her a little. Only because she feared she might
never see those places herself. She felt a thrill of danger in her father’s
truck each time she put her hands on the wheel. She believed, superstitiously,
that the truck might lead her where she was meant to go.
Because Piper
believed this: she was meant to go elsewhere. Beyond Oro Vada. Outisde
Colorado.
Piper flinched
when Camila nudged her shoulder. She turned so Camila’s knee was pressed
against her ear instead. She could see Camila’s raised eyebrow in her mind if
not with her eyes.
Camila did not
notice the flinch. No one noticed the flinching anymore. “Did you hear that?”
she asked, knowing Piper had not. Piper’s hearing was as selective as her
attention. “Your non-relative just said the station covers the entire desert. I
don’t think he knows how large the desert actually is.”
Sofia raised
both her brows, because she shared Camila’s skepticism. There was a lot of
desert to cover, and the station was too small and insignificant to go much
farther from Oro Vada than the box truck.
Camila sat up in
the bed of the truck. Her feet dangled over the edges of the bed, the bottoms
the colour of the desert. Because Sofia was in the truck with her, she got a
rib full of knee. Together they jostled, together they upset one of the snake
eggs that sat on top of a magazine and had never hatched. They watched it roll
on the floor of the bed, as if escaping. Disaster flicked its eyes their way,
briefly. Sofia reached for the egg and returned it to the magazine pile.
“It won’t hatch
anyway,” Camila said.
“But we don’t
want it to just break open on the bed,” Sofia said. “It’s still got that new
car smell.”
It had no such
smell. This was a joke as the expense of all three Cortez sisters, who had
rehabilitated the car to the best of their abilities after it had been brutally
neglected. Before it belonged to Camila Cortez, it belonged to Nicolas Cortez,
Camila’s cousin, who vanished to San Francisco and returned with a box truck
that made his parents proud and a wife that did not. The truck stuck around
longer than the wife, and when Nicolas swore never to bring home another woman,
or himself, he abandoned the truck on the Cortez’s land. The truck was used
briefly to carry feed between ranches, and to transport relatives from
carpentry jobs to paint jobs to landscaping jobs to bars. When the truck grew
weary and threw a tantrum, the Cortez’s developed suddenly great skill at
walking. The truck was left to stew in its bitter feelings. Then the rain came
and it stewed in the rain. Then the animals and the wind came and seeds stewed
in it, and animals sewed in the crops that rose out of it. Sedges climbed over
the hood and roof and absorbed noisy frogs and attracted sand hill cranes. When
the trout moved in, delivered by storms or monsoon rain or their own desperation,
coyotes followed. The cranes hardly stood a chance. The sounds of cranes being
devoured messily in the middle of the night was enough to drive the Cortez’s to
action.
Camila had
volunteered her services, mostly because she felt that denuding the truck of
sedges and swamp timothy would be like pulling the wrapping off a gift. She
worked steadily and cruelly to evict the animals. The plants took less notice
of her efforts, because she was more gentle and slow evicting sedge. She found
plant life more charming than bloody-muzzled coyotes. The truck was slow to
trust her, but eventually even it seemed to forget the trauma. The only
reminder was the snake egg that had never hatched, found under the passenger’s
seat when she was chasing a leopard frog toward the door. The egg was heavy
enough to contain fetal snake, but still enough that it was unlikely the fetal
snake was destined to emerge. It had stayed in a rolled up sock in the glove
compartment for a while, and now it sat on top of a stack of magazines where
Sofia occasionally glanced at it and suggested they paint it and make an
ornament of it.
The radio
crooned something new and dubious. The Cortez sisters held their breaths
briefly to acknowledge this, and to pay it some attention. They were all
enamored with pirate radio, which they collectively saw as an embodiment of
American youth and its hunger for terrible music, revolution, and jail time.
Only one of these things did not appeal to them, and as Camila has once pointed
out, they would none of them go to jail for listening to pirate radio. Piper
knew firsthand that the broadcasts were pre-taped, and that the DJ used a false
name over the radio. Revolution was good; avoiding fine while revolutionizing
was best.
“Maybe he’ll get
caught this summer,” Sofia said. She did not want to see any relative, or
friend, or friend of a relative of Piper’s go to jail, but she was curious to
see what would happen, and she had a healthy amount of concern about the
Federal Communications Commission that meant she assumed that it was
inevitable.
“He won’t,”
Camila answered, because when a question was open to any of the Cortez sisters,
it was Camila that answered first. Camila seemed often as rapt in her own
imagination as Piper, but Sofia thought some of that might be a lie. She was
almost always ready to respond.
Art by Gabriele Crow
Text by Lucie MacAulay