The thing about
the market was, there weren’t many places to run but away, and away was a short
trip across a dangerous gorge at regularly scheduled intervals. Not that Cabaso
wanted to get away, but it was a good thing to keep in mind.
He had no
intention of leaving his hat behind but his natural impulses were pushing him
toward the dock where illegal rides across the gorge could be bought at
outrageous prices. Outrageous for others. Cabaso was sure there was a ferryman
or woman that owed him a favour, or two. Once man and hat were reunited, they
would make their way across the gorge and into the rest of the tunnels and away
from the market.
There was a bit
to be done before then.
Something he had
been warned about, by a former member of a squat party in a market on the other
side of town, after helping the former member across the gorge with one of his
favours and thus earning himself two more that would, unfortunately, never be
collected (the market on the other side of town was vastly different from the
market Cabaso currently enjoyed; denizens from one almost never experienced
long life when shifted from one to the other), was the tendency for squat
parties to adopt people from the market. Adoption was not a legal action, or
even a trade. It was that they took all of your fears and reinforced them, then
pushed them until you believed they were all something they were not. When they
could manipulate your fear, it was easy to make you believe they were the only
answer to it.
Cabaso was
trying very hard to recall that he knew this, mostly because he could not stop
being afraid in that moment.
The fear had
come on him so suddenly that he did not know he was frightened until he saw
someone who could relieve the fear. He was frightened of being alone, and here
was someone, in a wrecked old vest and trousers, to alleviate his fear. He was
surprised at how easily the man took his arm and led him toward the cellar door
of the building next to Mr.Castle’s pawn shop. He was very glad not to be
alone, and to see that there were other faces in the cellar.
“Another one!”
someone said.
Another! Which
meant there were several before him! Cabaso climbed down into the cellar. What
was he doing here? What were they all going to do here? He hoped they were not
going to leave the cellar. If they were to get lost, to lose one another- how
horrible alone they would all be.
The squatters
made a home for him in their nest of blankets. The blankets smelled old and
damp, like dough that had been left to rise and do nothing else, and he sank into
them with a happy sigh. “You know,” Cabaso said, “I did not even know what I
was looking for until just now. I’ve only just found it.”
“That’s lovely,”
said his neighbour, wrapped in another blanket. There was something strange
about her eyes. They were colourless in a way Cabaso’s mind did not want to
see. “I bet you don’t want to leave it, do you? Never leave this place, eh?”
“Never,” Cabaso
agreed. It seemed the most basic of things, the simplest truth, that he should
never want to leave. What help appeal outside the squat party? And, locked deep
down inside of him, if there was a voice protesting or questioning, it was
easily ignored.
Time passed, but
Cabaso would not have sworn that it did. They did not sleep, just let more of
the dough smell collect around them. Someone on his other side shifted
occasionally and made small, unhappy noises as their skin changed. It was like
dough rising, like the smell, smoothing out all the cracks in his face. Perhaps
it was painful, but Cabaso would not know. He did not move in the swelter of
blankets. Someone moved across the floor above him. Someone else left to wander
through the tunnels that ran under the houses and shops of the ridge, then came
back, empty handed. Which was disappointing. It would have been so good, Cabaso
thought, to expand the party. There could never be too many squatters.
When he shifted
again, after some time, someone else brushed his arm. They smelled distinctly
human, and like heat, not like the damp that settled into the cellar and his
bones. They were trying to attract his attention, shifting in the mass around them.
How irritating, and rude, Cabaso thought. He frowned at the man.
“Don’t give me
that look,” the man said. “You know why I’m here. Oh, this is a bit of a mess.
I know you would have rather I left you alone. Know that circumstances forced
my hand.”
Cabaso tried to
recall what circumstances those were, and if he were in any circumstance that
would force the man’s hand. He did not think so.
“We’ll get out
of here through the tunnels,” the man said, “Once you’ve woken up. Oh, that
better be soon. Come on, Cabaso. Please make it soon.”
But Cabaso was
awake. He had been awake for a while now. Sometimes the scenery of the cellar
changed, which was how he knew that time had passed. More faces had become
mountainous and dough-like. The woman beside him was hardly recognizable
anymore, except for the blue shawl tied under her shapeless chin. It was a
sight. The strange man was distracting him from it, and he tried to put into
words why he found it so irritating to move or be spoken to at length. “This is
where I belong,” Cabaso said.
Something next
to him that could have been a person nodded. It was like watching an unbaked loaf
of bread bounce.
Cabaso tried to
ignore the strange man, and not to move. These things both proved difficult,
since the strange man was right in front of him. The strange man moved about
the cellar, pushing aside Cabaso’s squat party as he reached for Cabaso. He
tugged on Cabaso until he stood. Cabaso was put out to find himself travelling
through the tunnels, away from his squatting territory and his party. He was
sure he was meant to stay with them. This man was leading him toward a place he
would be quite alone.
“This is not-” Cabaso
broke off because the man had stuck something in his mouth. Cotton balls or
cloth. It was in between Cabaso’s teeth and made his words into sloppy noises.
“You know me,”
the man said. There was light shining down through the floorboards, on the
man’s dark skin. “Algernon. Come now, Cabaso. The squatters got you. If Castle
decides now’s the time to check for squatters in his shop, you’re caput.”
He tugged Cabaso
along. They bumped into chairs and tables together. Cabaso turned around, to go
back, but he was walking backward, because the strange man was still pulling
him. When Cabaso glanced upward, he saw a knot in one of the floorboards, and
through it, it looked like Mr.Castle had gone to meet his neighbour. Cabaso did
hope Mr.Castle would not check for squatters, or disband or dismember their
squatting party.
“Oh, dear,” the
strange man said. He looked up through the knot. Mr.Castle was wearing lots of
finery for his visit. Cabaso thought it was nice. He thought his party must be
getting worried about now. The smell of dough was fading, and his head felt
very large, a balloon about to pop, filled with helium. He wanted to take hold
of it to make sure it didn’t fall off his shoulders.
The strange man
dragged him a few more feet away from the squat party. Cabaso should have been
infuriated by this. He should have turned around and reclaimed those feet.
“He is gone,” Mr.Castle said, agitated and
hateful. “Just disappeared. Cuffs open. Well, he’s no thief, just a con artist.
If you see him, though, you can still cut off his hands.”
Cabaso’s cranium
swelled even more. He would have to poke it with something to deflate it, soon.
Mr.Castle moved
again, into Cabaso’s full vision. Through the knot, he was an attractive shape,
if a little large at the stomach. He looked exactly the Mr.Castle that had tried
to drown him in a metal container a week (several days? A month?) ago, except
for the addition of a remarkable piece of clothing that did not mean to sit on
his head. The hat was like all the shadowed shades of colour.
Cabaso did touch
his head, then, because he thought this thing in it might burst. He was only
prodding his anger, he realized. Like prodding an animal only half-stuck in a
trap. He looked fiercely at the hat on Mr.Castle’s head.
It was elegant.
It was sophisticated and mysterious. It shone like a wet street. Something
about Cabaso gave a little snap like a “twing”.
“My hat,” he
said.
It irritated
Cabaso slightly that Algernon noticed the exact moment he woken up and did
nothing about it. It would be a mistake for them both to run, right now. There
was still a party of squatters in the bowels of these houses. They had no
advantage except for being awake, and they were on vastly different pages.
Algernon wanted to get away, only. What Cabaso wanted was on Mr.Castle’s head.
There was the
matter of getting from the bowels of this house, to the ground level of
Mr.Castle’s house.
“Excuse me,
Algernon,” Cabaso said blandly. “I’ve just remembered what it is I’m here for
and that I’m in perfect control of the situation. I should be getting along
with it, actually.”
Algernon said,
“Cabaso. Oh, dear brother, you don’t seem to understand exactly what’s going
on. It’s a little more complicated than all that, I’m afraid.”
Cabaso,
understanding exactly how complicated it was and how complicated it was not,
said, “I am sure that if you would rather stay here, behind, you are welcome
to. There are some very nice people in the other room that will welcome you
with open arms. I, however, had something of extremely important business to
attend to.”
“I’ve got this,”
Algernon said.
Cabaso, who believed
Algernon had, at the moment, nothing, wandered past him, into the cellar of
Mr.Castle’s room. It was much easier to see how the squatters were really one
entity from outside the party. They were all so incredibly dough-like.
Mr.Castle, it turned out, was very bad at pest control, because they were very
close to growing between the cracks of the floor boards. Cabaso had to be very
careful about edging around them, toward the stairs that led up the ladder.
Algernon was a little less careful, on account of trying to reach Cabaso before
he revealed them both, but he was too slow. And anyway, Cabaso was good at big
reveals.
He made a very
flashy one in Mr.Castle’s store. Perhaps not the best of places to reveal himself.
His coat, flung open dramatically and devastatingly, knocked over a couple
second-hand lamps. And his delicate, dark fingers, outstretched for show,
scraped one of the shelves. A nail broke. Cabaso tried not to let it affect his
entrance.
“Oh, that’s very
rude,” Mr.Castle said. He was holding a gun in Cabaso’s direction and though
the hammer was cocked, Cabaso still felt worried at its presence. He did not
like barrels pointed at him. Having Algernon climb up after him did not help.
“Hello again,”
Cabaso said. “I’m afraid I haven’t the time to be almost drowned again. I have
to be getting on. And you are actually a primary function in my getting on.
Don’t try anything with that gun, now. They’re permanent, you know.”
“I do know. Where
exactly do you plan to go next?”
Cabaso lifted
one shoulder. The hat was in the same room as him, just on a devastatingly
wrong head. “I could show you. If I had a map. And time. But you can’t expect
me to stay, really.”
“I can, really.
There’s a map there, on the counter. I want you to tell me where it is you
think you’ll be going before I actually do kill you. Pick it up and unfold it,
carefully. There you go. Come on. Hurry up. You, behind him, stop leaning over.
I want to see- ah.”
Mr.Castle came forward
to look at the map. The gun was still pointed at Cabaso. Through the
floorboards below them rose the scent of dough. Cabaso held the map open before
Mr.Castle. “This is a shame. I’d rather hoped you would put down the gun when
you came to look. I also hoped I would have a more interesting route to show
you, but it’s looking more and more like we won’t be getting very far. Just out
of this room, isn’t that right, Algernon?”
Mr.Castle opened
the one flap of the map that Cabaso hadn’t unfolded. He stepped on a floorboard
that should have creaked, but took a moment too long, because the creak was
coming from the floorboard being pushed in the wrong direction. Dust was
dislodged from the grooves of it. Cabaso felt a slight pressure beneath his
boots.
“I am going to
enjoy killing you,” Mr.Castle said, pressing the gun into the side of Cabaso’s
head. “And this time I won’t wait for you to drown. Directly at my hand, you
see.”
Cabaso did see.
He was also edging slowly toward the door, so slowly he was nearly holding his
breath. The barrel of the gun pressed lightly into the side of his head, then
not at all. What he needed, was to not be in this room, very quickly. He hoped
that Algernon had been listening and that he was also aiming to be out of the
room very quickly. There was the hat, which didn’t need to listen, but needed
to be out of the room with them, very quickly. He would soon have to actually
grab it.
Cabaso took a
full step backward. Mr.Castle pulled the hammer on the gun back, eyes narrowed.
He was tilted, a little, because the floorboard beneath him was. He bared his
teeth at Cabaso. Cabaso noticed that Algernon was matching his pace in going
backward, except perhaps he was moving a little more quickly. Cabaso hesitated,
made a decision, and stumbled back several paces as though he’d lost his
balance. Mr.Castle raised the gun, but did not shoot. Cabaso heard Algernon
breathe in, very quickly.
“What is
happening?” Mr.Castle said. His mouth was stretching sideways in the shape of
dismay. The floorboard beneath his feet appeared to be buckling. He took a step
back as well. The hat followed him.
“Your squatters
are getting bigger,” Cabaso said. “I thought they would, if you were not
careful. And you never seem to be. Algernon, you’re quite ready?”
He saw Algernon
nod in the corner of his eye.
Mr.Castle aimed
his gun again. They were unfortunately very close, and his aim was very
accurate. “You are going to die today,” he informed Cabaso.
“Oh goodness,
darling,” Cabaso said, pressing a hand to his heart. “Lies do not become us.”
And it was at
this moment that the first of the squatters burst up through the floorboards,
and broke several of them in the process. Because the first of the squatters
was atop the rest of the squat party, and had become the rest of the squat party.
They were no more than a rough collection of fingers and an outline of limbs
that was melded somewhat into the rest of the party. They ballooned upward,
white and thick and squishy, throwing Mr.Castle back.
Cabaso leapt upon
the heap. It was an unpleasant heap to be atop, even for a second. The sour
smell of dough filled his nostrils and every crevice of his head. The only
forgiving thing was the feel of the hat’s brim between his fingers, then the
hat in his palm, then the hat on his head as he fell back and made for the
door, Algernon on his heels.
It was not
unusual for people to run from the squat party, so the squat party had realized
that it could stretch itself out in an effort to catch the runners too. It
stretched toward Algernon and Cabaso as they flung themselves through the door
and onto the ridge. It stretched on the ground floor and in the tunnels, and so
there was not quite enough of it to stretch. They stretches not-quite hands
toward the both of them and came up empty. They pulled back together, lest they
accidentally sever part of themselves. It was frightening to be alone, anyway.
No one noticed
Algernon and Cabaso running into the market, away from the pawn shops, toward
the main ferry docks of the gorge. They slowed to a jog between the stalls, and
when the space grew cramped and crowded, they slowed to a leisurely stroll to
catch their breath.
“That was quite
the risk you just took,” Algernon said, as the ridge wall fell away behind
them. “Are you entirely sure it was worth it?”
Cabaso heard him
only partially. He was inspecting the hat for damage and finding none. There
was a bit of dough on the brim but he flicked it off and stepped around it on
the ground. Let the market deal with it when it began to grow. He would be long
gone. “Entirely.”
They walked
deeper into the market, both looking over their shoulders for Mr.Castle and
unwilling to admit they were looking. Cabaso had dusted the hat off long
enough; he put it on.
It fit as it had
before. Which was to say that it fit perfectly. The man beneath it looked a
little fantastic. He was all cast in colours of shade, like you could not see
him properly, even looking head on. Like he was meant to be cloaked in shadow.
The twinkle in his eyes was darker than the twinkle in others eyes. The hat was
magnificent on him, shining like wet pavement.
Cabaso adjusted
it, just so, to be able to see out from beneath the brim without making the
curve of the brim look like an invitation. He turned around and found that
Algernon had performed a trick of vanishing enigmatically and mysteriously away
into the crowd, without a goodbye, without a hint of his leaving or having been
there in the first place.
It sounded like
something a charismatic character would do in a story. Cabaso realized it was
one of his pet peeves.
A lady in a
stall beside him was giving him a look. He was not interested in the look right
now, unless he could make its owner owe him a favour, but he wasn’t sure of the
market’s future, and he definitely did not want to be a part of it, with
Mr.Castle possibly still floating around somewhere, and a ball of dough
squatters definitely floating about somewhere. So he tilted the hat to her and
the hat took the gesture and turned it into something elegant, stately, regal,
and charmed her with it, so that she would never forget the man in the shadowy
hat with the charismatic smile. She did not know Cabaso, but she knew he was
like no one else she had ever met.
Cabaso turned
away, toward the gorge and his ride out of the market. There were some thoughts
lingering around him, like the stray threads of a cobweb, about what was going
to happen to the person under the hat and about whoever that might be, and
about the people around him. Then he tilted the hat down and performed a trick
of vanishing enigmatically and mysteriously away into the crowd, without a
goodbye, without a hint of his leaving or having been there in the first place.
Text by Lucie MacAulay
Art by anonymous